Back to square one :)

Finally!! 2weeks training is OVER! 

Officially an Airbus crew woohoo! 

Damn I miss flying...felt so bored and alone on ground..

Got fat too!! And I miss the GLOBE!! 

I miss the smell of smelly aircraft and dirty galleys!! 

I'm so glad I'm back on track tomorrow!

Also have to get my bikini body back for my little getaway to perhentian island on my bday!!

Going to that place is like a serious out of the city thing...no hair dryers or electric kettles cause the island is using a generator for power supply :x 

Our room only has a fan...and might not have phone lines thr...yikes...

Well at least they have wifi at the cafe...won't die wan lah!

We need this once awhile..too much technologies in our everyday life..we need to take a break n cut down the tv and computers! Mother Nature here I come <3

Hmm...I'm gonna miss my baby boo when I start working...

He's the only thing that will hold me back from my future...but I guess love makes u do crazy things..

And I do hope it's worth it! 

Wish me luck for my training flight on Friday! Hope I won't get tongue slashed by the seniors...oh I hope I will get nice kind seniors who will teach me anything I need to know *prays*

Will update soon! Goodnight! 

What is love?

The question everyone is Always wondering...

There's no concrete explanation for it..

And people do the weirdest things for love...

Is there anything to overcome this mind playing games?

Hmm...

Well for the third time..

He steps right in and I melted right away..

Though my mind says no it won't work out and we r not right for each other..

We r from two different worlds..and yet...

The moments he pleads for my love again..all I did was throwing everything I had in my hand and run back to his arms..

Gosh so foolish I could get sometimes..

And I am regretting it now.. 

Somehow it isn't as it is before..well ya we have our own lives now...I'm working and he's studying..

And we don't really have time like we used to...in a week we only see each other once..

And when I start flying again who knows how many times we will meet up?

And since he is so caught up in studies, even texts are short..just updating our whereabout and asking what we're doing...and ending the sentence with "love you" it gets dull and boring everyday..love you becomes a word..just a word with no meaning at all...

This made me wonder..is love like this? Is being in a relationship like this?

I don't feel this way before..but I do now...I wonder how about you guys? I meant the working couples?

Do you guys date like this too? Short simple texts...not more then an hour phone calls...simple dinner dates then you go home n do your own things,...and before bed you just say I'm going to bed goodnight? Is it just me or this is how it works? 

I used to imagine things like texts are sweet..phone calls are never ending..he just enlightens me when I am down to earth...cheers me up with flowery jokes..but what I'm feeling now it's like...

I'm single and he's just there sometimes...and when he sleeps he doesn't answer his phone? 

So I'm wondering...I'm always thinking about this question...what if one day I had an emergency in the middle of the night and he is not answering his phone? Is he going to be there when I need him? Which leads to is this the guy for me? And is this who I want to be with? 

I'm just questioning myself every single day....and it came to the point where there was no answer and I just ignored it at the end...

Is there anyone out there who could tell and teach me what to do? Or I should just play dumb and let things go with the flow? I guess I seriously need a therapist :( 

Anyone with answers or advises..I wish you could tell me...just mail me your preferences and thoughts will ya? Mail me here at gohyikt@hotmail.com