The silent killer..

Wow.. it's been a while my dear bloggie! And I'm back again to fret and distress.. argh..I really need a place to let go of my feelings and here is the only place I can find now...

So here goes...the title would be silent killer..why? Well..since I join the world of the airlines..things are much more complicated.. and it's what I've expected before I joined so yeah...and I know it's gonna be a rough road..all the judging and gossiping had just begun.. it's not  really a pretty sight seeing phony humbugs everyday.. it's tiring...I wonder how some can last so long...nevertheless.. ITS JUST THE BEGINNING! there's a lot more I have to pick up n learn to live a strong n independent life!

Moving on..

Like I mentioned..judging is issue number one in class...yes although everyone might seem okay in class but you know la..ladies drama.. behind the back all pokes here n there ..but there are SOME who are honest enough to tell it out..so yeap it's good..my comments aren't as bad as some..but they mentioned I need to change? Yes I agree people need to change and to learn..I know.. but just saying...I'm not what u guys think I am...as in I'm not really myself when I'm in the academy..I'm not really a baby as everyone calls me..it's just a show I put on to stay neutral.. thanks to my cute little squeaky voice..

I'm in the process of growing up... sometimes I might be childish ..but most of the time I just choose to keep my mouth shut.. in this field..it's hard to stay long if people start talking about u etc. So it's best to keep a low profile..but apart from that..there's another side of me none of you had witness before...I've never shown my grumpy side and I've never been angry yet.. so...don't step on me..Im not always nice and I won't treat you like how I normally look once u step on me..

The meaning behind the title would be..
A silent person is always the scariest..
Heard of the term "wolf in sheep's clothing"? Yeah... be observant..things aren't always as it looks.. I don't really like people calling me baby / childish but I'm just putting it aside for now.. as to me I don't need any of u to know who I really am...at the end of the day..this is how I protect myself from threats.. I choose not to show u my harsh side..I choose to play dumb n act innocent.. :)

Conclusion: isn't that why my comments aren't as harsh as others? They just ask me to grow up.. hehe...whereas others are being judge left right center about everything they do..so people...be neutral.. be humble..be low profiled...
Let them bully you for now...let them comment on you...but at the end of the day..who becomes queen is always the silent ones.. just saying! :P

Btw.. I'm excited / scared of the feeling of moving out alone next feb.. suddenly feels like I'm just a small fry in a big big dangerous world...can I survive?? *Wonders* we'll soon find out whether I blogged or not in future abt this adventurous road I'm gonna take xD

my career

Time flies...

so fast 11 Nov is around the corner...

in a blink of an eye..

soon I'll be on flying duties..

sigh...

Time to go through 4 months of training ..around next year I'll be gone..

Since everything is doing well now..

i dont have the feeling to leave anymore D:

so I'm feeling kinda heavy hearted...

argh..

I'm gonna miss everyone and everything here..

I'm going to experience things I havent before...

live an independant life...

can i make it though? 

will i succeed?

will I adapt?

I hope so...

Thailand! xD

went on a short adventure with this fatty to thailand!

4days :)

went there by bus!

I'll let the photos tell my story and I'll just elaborate a little..

Before leaving!

arrived and went to 7-11..lol had this cantaloupe dessert! yummers! I freaking love their 7-11 there..

so many things to munch on *omnomnom* 

waiting to check in ! and of course..what we do BEST!

C-A-M-W-H-O-R-E!

check out our ride! hahaha

different from the normal tuk tuk! :D

well that's cuz this ride belongs to shanel's uncle! haha

had our first ever lunch! 

:D

KOAY CHAP!

finally can taste it fresh and not ta bao-ed all the way from thailand! xD

we went to breathe and scout the seas of hatyai?

:D

we spotted a mermaid on our walk there ..teehee!

look at our smelly feet x)

after a long walk...we sat down n rest!

of course we had coconut (u cant miss it when u go there!) to chillout!

After a long day..went down stairs of our hotel to have a walk!

so many peeps! so many stalls! so super cheap food!

:D

call it a day...

the next day wasnt as expected as it was,,,

cuz me n shanel had food poisoning..

GAWD!

what a way to spend the last day there..*sobs*

but somehow we forced our way out to the Lee Garden mall

bought some stuffs! had swensens! its super cheap here haha

went to the floating market as well! saw many strange foods and stuffs! 

definately bought some stuffs here haha

bought a coconut drink for RM2 and it comes with the cup!

:D 

dirt cheap! imagine if it was in KL...

the price might be like RM7?

later at night..

this woman n her boyfriend was chatting in the bathroom

haha..so weird ikr?

but she was lazy to go out of the toilet since she was busy vomitting

suffered the whole day..

anything that goes in our mouth comes back out 

T.T *sobs*

LOOK AT MY PALE FACE!

*sobs*

finally she came out..but i feel neglected lol..

keep talking to her boyfriend D:

i wish i had one though..haha

decided to camwhore since i have nothing to do..

the tv programs are all in thai..sien lo!

i dont understand a thing..haha the only thing i can watch is channel V

and australian tv!

Our room is super messy! 

:P

anyways I'm kinda lazy to blog today..

so this is just a short one!

people at thailand are so friendly..

food super delicious

things are dirt cheap xD

so will i go back?

DEFINATELY!

Sometimes

Argh.. woke up to a rainy morning...
N my mood is..emo... :\

sometimes...
I just wish I can just separate myself from everyone here..so I won't easily get upset or jealous when I see people having fun without me :(
That's another reason I choose to be a cabin crew...to eliminate myself from the people here...I don't have to see anyone that often..I can live my life with freedom and alone..I can meet different people everyday..n everyday is a different batch of people... my friends won't repeat! Hence it's less the jealousy...

Argh...I really hate it when I think childish like this..but I just can't help it! I'm just so afraid to feel leftout.. to feel alone..like nobody wants to be my friend...sometimes I feel that I don't even have a best friend..I dont like to stay home so much..i like to go out as often as i can..i like to take photos n post them up..doing this makes me feel that I exists..and by going out..its the only time I can smile n laugh..I guess my past really hurt me n made me have this shadow that haunts me every now n then.. I get a lot of people who bumps into me n says I always smile a lot...yeah...but behind those smiles is just a girl who is depressed...

so I wish that I can fly faster...then I don't have to face anyone here.. I can live an independent life and don't feel lonely or upset if anyone doesn't find me..instead..I will disappear from them..

If you just believe :)

Hey peeps!
A long while it is..
A rough road I've been walking on too..
Finally I'm back with my peaceful happy life..and so I decided to blog!

Dreams will come true if you just believe.
True or false?
I used to think those motivators from talks are just speaking based on a book..
But Finally after experiencing it by myself..I'm proud to say..I believe it too!

Why?
Well, I remember back in school..there was this man who gave a talk...he was saying something like " I wanna be that person, and ever since I keep telling myself I will be that in 2years time! And indeed I am what I wanted to be today"
In my head I was like yeah right! But looking back...for these past few months.. what I have been fighting for.. Finally was a success.. x) what a relief! And indeed what he said is true!

Since my course ended during mid July,
I attended interviews after interviews and none of it was a success..I was getting sick n tired of attending cabin crew interviews as it is not as simple as the other ordinary interviews u go through outside...sigh.. these interviews takes the whole day n it's no kidding tiring! But I didn't give up..a few reasons were the key to my motivation.. and I just kept thinking I must and I want to be a cabin crew! I will do it!

Thank God..Finally! I passed my recent interview, I passed my med checkup and now just on my way to fulfil my dream career! :) and in few years time I wanna drive my dream car haha! So we'll see what comes out of it! XD

Well, this is just a post that I hope to inspire my fellow friends..in anything u do..don't give up..just remember if u want something u must get it, be confident! Don't don't ever give up no matter how tired u are :) most importantly...is believe!! believe u can do it, believe u will get it. One day u surely will get it!  Haha.. Yay I'm so excited n yeap... I'll be going to Thailand end of this month so I'll update my bloggie soon!
Ciao miao!

A short trip to Singapore!

What a beautiful day to blog about my short trip to Singapore!
yey!

finally the first time I ever went across the SEA! 

So it was last thursday where this amazing day started off by the ringing of my alarm clock at 4am

get ready and rush off to aunty's place!

She's our driver of the day!

hehe..

after 6 long hours (if not mistaken or was it 8? ) of travelling, finally we've reached SINGAPORE!

The view was splendid! 

I like their buildings and the way the government arranged everything so orderly and systematically

the green trees accompanied by the blue skies made the picture even more pleasing to the eyes!!

Such a clean clean country..i salute!

Below are some shots i snapped while we were in the car,

I was fascinated with everything around me so i practically snapped everything I saw..hehe

so proud of my shots!

they look good! ;)

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Say hello to my two lovely cousins!

okay so our stomachs were calling out for food ....

we decided to have the famous prawn mee at beach road!
so many people lining up for this bowl of mee!

its yummy though~

so its worth the wait...but i guess locals dont really go there so often..

More sceneries..

So we arrived at our hotel,

we were staying at this small place called bayview hotel.

everything there was nice..nothing to complain about

their breakfast buffet was okay as well...

price wise...errrr....to malaysians its considered expensive due to the high currency haha

but well if we are locals i guess its alright!

Beside our hotel was 7-11 and a train station "Bras Basah"

I love the 7-11 here! so nice n clean and have lots of stuffs to eat! haha

I finally tried the vitamin water in the chinese drama i watched !

its tastyyyy~ a thirst quencher! ;)

so this is how the underground train station looks like :)

below is just a snapshot i took while passing by...

i was at orchard road shopping!

so i bought souvenirs for my sweethearts back in malaysia and moved on to marina bay!

i realised the walls at the train station are filled with various creative artworks ..

its really interesting to see haha..

they even give out free newspapers at their subway!

:)

there are plenty of artworks on the streets too! 

sculptures and statues you name it!

:)

we walked all the way to clarke quay as it was on the way to marina!

there they have this boat ride..

and colourful buildings!
a very cute place to go..

they even have this elastic ball ride..

which i wanted to try!!!
but no time...

zzz...

say hello to my mummy!
haha

it was just us..my cousins were all back at the hotel!

after buying our river cruise tickets,

an irish gelato stand caught my eye!
hehe so i bought this pistachio gelato to give it a try!
*thumbs up*

different texture! different taste! YUMMYYY!

opps! camwhoring hehe!

below is our boat!

Singapore's pride! :)

looks magnificent!

and its filled with ant-like peeps!

this is where they have their concerts :D

the skypark!

:)

freaking nice !

went out at night!
:)

gonna visit gardens by the bay~ and the skypark!

A little peep of the view!

its like you're at the top of the world here!

strong winds brushing through your hairs!

so cooling so nice!

really breath taking and memorable!

I'll definately be back!

Then the next morning had breakfast and then me n mummy departed singapore!

well, i wanted to stay longer but mummy force to go home with her..sad..

Hmm..

But its okay! 

This is still a wonderful experience and a short adventure to singapore!

Its like a starter to my opening..hehe

The next round when I'm back i will explore on my own to the max! 

Stay tuned! ;)