Yay!! Passed my TRX exam n theory! ^^ damn happy! If I actually sell my pt sessions I will upgrade to pro coach!! Hehe!

hmm...I wonder what our relation is now @@ so weird..hope things will sort out soon...

Damn so fast it's xmas!! too bad due to work no time to buy presents D: what a merry Christmas!! Sigh..

Well..many things to blog about...but I'm freaking exhausted!!
Another random thing is I want to change my childish behavior!! That will be included in my next years resolution! ^^ just for u! Haha

oh maii! :D finally so fast spm over! and i dont know what i did but its crazy!
after spm i went for an interview to be a personal trainer at celebrity fitness!
and 3 weeks later..here i am today being a qualified personal trainer! hehe!

remember to support me k? :D come by maybe & look for me?

anyways went for their annual dinner! it was fun! haha
and after the party everyone went to zouk! :D
damn! adult parties are so much fun! hehe
the photo above was my dress! :D sowieee no full body photo!
lazy to upload!

anyways....TATA!

So fast?!

Lol wow it's about to be the end of another year! So fast!!
well it's about 7 more days to spm!
*Sigh* and 5 more days to graduation..
Then marks the end of my high school years! I still feel it was as though I was just form 1 last week and my pmr ended yesterday n now it's SPM!! Gosh!

everything is definately changing.. even myself...my looks...the trend..etc. and I'm GETTING OLD!!! haih..

Lol finally I can drive around freely..seriously?? Time really flies lah!!
So the next thing I'll know is I'm getting married haha!

I'm finally tired..letting bygones be bygones...if he is mine or we're meant to be definitely he'll be back..
I can't do anything now...n I have no other choice to choose from other than to accept D: sad lah!!

and yey! Almost finish making my graduation presents for my darlings and dudes! Hope they will like it...

And yay! Thanks Matthew for helping me buy my new toy! Excited to play with it this Thursday! N I got a Starbucks card free for purchasing! Yippie! #happykid

Okay I don't think I have anything else to say so far..so I'm signing off!!

Melanie signing off blogger on a bright sunny day! ♥

after 2 weeks of not going to school~

i am more cheerful and happy

and i went to school today happily..

went lunch with crystal, mei and kai jin at the curve...

then so happily came home

and when i check my phone...

STUNNED!

he texted me..

i thought it was something good at first till i read the text 

=_=

he ask me to let go n all the bullshits

few days back he ask jun chin to past the msg to me that

from the start till now he was just playing my feelings

goodness! 

stop bullshitting pls! 

i read through our old msgs i know!

stop lying n creating more mess!

making our rship more complicated as if its not complicated enough!

u making yourself look like a total dushbag jackass by doing all this now!

i'm not even doing anything!

i didnt disturb u then u just continue your life la!

when i disturb u then u dont like..fine la!

now i didnt disturb u aso! i'm happily living my own life

and u must ddly! ask ppl past me msg n stuff!

WHY???

u told shu yee you dont care anymore!

you dont care about my stuffs..

you dont wanna be friends with me n u dun wanna give me even the littlest hope..

okay! fine then...i accept it...

then whats up with u now?!

if you really dont care then show it n prove u really dont care!

dont just say it n your heart means something else!

so cowardly act!

be a man n face your true feelings for once pls!

if u dont care why do u even bother changing 180 degrees after we broke up!

if u really dont care u shud continue your life as the way it is and not changing yourself into a rubbish person!

smoking..gambling..spending unnecessary money, clubbing with all the chicks! 

purposely posting your photos to show me how happy u are?

seriously? u are one year older then me pls act like your age!

dont so childish n do all this bullshit!

if u really dont care then when your friends tell u what i post on my facebook..

before they could even tell u..u would actually tell them so? i dont wanna know la not my prob!

and not brag about it to shu yee saying i know la i know whats going on de!

doesnt mean i care!

=_= wtf la u! WTF!

n smoke bcause of our break up??!

seriously dont act so low n use me as an excuse to ruin your life!

u choose how u want your life to be!
idiot!

i didnt say i wanna leave u in the first place!

is u are the one thinking so much!

really fai cai!

RAWR!

if u dont care then i see what doctor aso none of your business

dont even bother asking!

dont go n ask n say u are not caring u just wanna know!
pls la!
u wanna know for wad?! not your business aso!

haih!

i dun understand why u cant face your true feelings..

n make things complicated!

isnt it clear enough your actions speak louder then your words??

i really dun wanna say la...

i have no choice n cant do anything aso...

i only can whine all i want here....

@@

so tired!

haih!

i dunno how i got myself into this mess!

n i have no idea how i fell in love with such a dude!

spm really got me going crazy!

haih time to sleep..

and wipe off all the unhappiness!

T.T

I really don't get it...

reading our old messages..

read your convo with my bitch..

i know i can really see you love me...

but i really dont understand..

i dont get it...

why cant you just discuss the matter with me?

whatever it is..

just talk!

why are you so stubborn like me?!

because of u who dont wanna think about it..

dont even want to give another chance to this relationship

because of you who dont want to discuss....

you prefer to keep the pain n reason in your heart,..

because of your stubborness...

do you know you are not only hurting yourself?

do you know u are killing me inside out?!

its because we both are stubborn!! u ae trying to make me let go of you...

and i wont let go cause what i want i will get it...

so end up we both suffer...

i dont get it..

why cant things go into your head..

why cant you just think properly tht anything can settle instead of listening to that bitch that teach you to let go must let go cruely?!

WTF is that?!

why cant you for once dont take advise from your friends and listen to your heart please?

you are depress..

you start smoking,gambling, driving up to genting for no apparent reason n come back down..

whats the point in doing all this?!

why make yourself suffer and drag me into this when we can be happy?

i dun understand...

its been 3 months..

i cant let go at all...

i still cry every night n its getting worst

i pray everyday..

waiting for god to answer my prayer...

do you know because of your selfish act..

you are making my life a living hell?!

if i can turn the time back...

i wouldnt give u a chance..

i regret..cs now u brought me suffering n pain...

i regret...for everything i do...

i just hope one day you can finally come to your senses..

and come back to me...

i dont care what u are doing now...

its not working!

whatever you're doing is not making me forget n let go of u...

FYI its making me wait for u even more...

if u want to play this game like how we use to when we r together..

i'll play with u until u go tired and come home...

u wanna drag this matter i will drag it...

as long as i dont get the real reason i wont let go...

i dont care what cruel shit your friend teach you to do to me..

i'm gonna be a buffalo when u are the coconut..

i will wait!

i dun give a damn!

i dun care if the whole world ask me to let go...

i want you to know..

I WONT!

i wont let u go so easily!

u think u can just walk into my life n get out easily?!

NO!

it dont work that way in my world!

how suffering it is i will wait!

i dun care if school's gonna end soon!

i will find u!

i will pester u!

n i wont let u go!

and i trust god will answer my prayer...

i know he can see my sincerity..

i know he's watching n he will grant his grace n mercy on me...

T.T

i know i trust i believe

things will change...

it will....

i know....

anyways...

happy birthday sohai! T.T

ILY!

sorry for not blogging after so long..

SPM this year! ><

bear with me hehe

anyways...

its a lovely sunday after church..

had lunch...

took off the road to the 3 hour journey to setiawan? teluk batik?

in short pangkor island lah! lol

TRALALALA! ^^
camwhored before n while travelling!

so despo to chg my DP in fb! haha

help me choose the best one kay??

^^

 the sun goes down...

:D

finally arrived..

checked in hotel..

ate din din! hehe

omfg! the food there freaking cheap!

i can get a bowl of mee for RM3.50 =_=

my favourite siew kai yik! :D

hehe!RM2 per wing..ikr? dirt cheap!

their chee cheong fun so special haha!

 pork inerts mee! LOL

dirt cheap aso!

n all the food freaking taste good!

better then the taste in KL food!

so flavourful n full of meats n stuff! 

totally not stingy! :D

claypot chicken rice! :D superb!

only Rm4.50...

taste so good!

and i love this the most!

curry hot plate mee!

the curry flavour so rich!

goodness,..

and its only RM3.50

=_=

how come no such thing u can get in KL??

kl so over priced n food not so tasty...

anyways..the following day woke up!

and had bah kut teh & special fish head for breakfast!

super yummy especially the fish!! but omg..

the most expensive breakfast i have in my entire life LOL

RM158! the price i'll never forget!

but its consider cheap...

cs the serving was huge n u cant find such things in KL!

:D

worth it!

worth getting fat with! haha

looks bigger in reality LOL n the vege edy almost done eating xD

went to pump petrol looking like a hippy! hahaha

and drove to the beach! yayy!

i love u beach!!

i havent stepped on sand for a long time dy!!

YAY!!

the smell of the sea is lovely!!

hehehehe!! super duper happy! must camwhore moments! XD

hehe do u believe in love?? :)

this is my face telling u NOPE...

love shit is over...so overr...i'm not gonna believe any guys anymore...

no such thing as love u forever,...

stinks! ish!

my chok yeung! hehehe

fishies in the sand! ^^

heheh! i didnt knw foursquare had a food centre! epic! xD

went in an ice fridge!! haha!! so cool inside there..

n of course cold! =P

 eee! the chills! LOL

n micheal is my camwhore kaki inside there LOL

then daddy brought us to eat seafood!

too bad we went there late so its finshed D: n its only like 2pm?

this feller business damn good..

cs its dirt cheap n his seafood freaking fresh n its tasty!!

he appeared on tv b4 :D

anyways we still get to eat others...what he have left he cook for us haha

cs he knows my daddy! so fren fren then give face lo! yay!

 hehehe

playing with mr.krabbs!

didnt get to eat him though..

cs the boss say its half dead D:

LOL

 crab!! even if its small but its freaking yyummmy!!!

 red wine min-sin?

LOL

 fried oyster! :D

 his specialty crispy fish!

 cucumber clam soup!!

all taste so good! cannot find in KL de xD

altogether RM146..

so cheap..u eat so many dish in kl it costs u 200++ dy

:D

anyways then after eating around 5pm dy...

so we went to teluk intan awhile

n i first time seeing the menara condong..

it is slightly condong only lah xD

i tot it would be like 45 degrees bent or somethn LOL

then we bought stuffs n head home! definately an enjoyable makan trip!

we'll be back!! hehehehe

for more seafood! YUMS! :D