Goodbye!

See u in 3months my dear! I really will miss u lots! T.T remember to keep me updated! Keep phone on always..I might need a listener here! T.T flooded with problems! D:

Where did u go?

Can anyone tell me..where did my best friend go?
it seems like her soul transformed into someone I can barely recognise.. D:

yes.. I'm pissed and rather disappointed :(
She used to listen to my problems and give me advise/ calms me down.. and now it's like all she ever says is "whatever lah! " or "huh..whaaat? I didn't hear" *playing with her handphone*
What a bummer? Gawd! I really want the old her back!

now when I have feeling I nidda let out I go to my other 2listeners rather then my very own best friend..I'm lost..what is the actual meaning behind BEST FRIENDS?

I'm disappointed enough with my life..
And now this...*sigh* how long more I have to face this crap? T.T my only good listener just went to ns.. the other is somewhere over the rainbow where I hardly even see her but just chat online..

God.. I beg u..please help me? Bring back my cheerful life back ? I hate being so down, oppressed and depressed.. T.T it's suffering.. I hate being so lonely...

I wish the old you will come back..I can't figure out Why u become so unreasonable and I have to say rather spoilt :( really upsets me to see my best friend becoming a stranger day by day..going separate paths, not clicking like we used to...

I guess this is what I call irony of life.

It's me signing off once again.. and I'm not happy today..

Hmph!

Goodbye to birthday resolutions..
It's all gone *Poof!* after I saw my salary!
I totally regret going to kettlebell training!! T.T caused me to have so little salary this month!

damn! I need to sell more protein to get side income! Anyone interested to buy protein shakes please do ask me!

Birthday resolutions!

Yay! Just one more month my bday is coming! :)

I'm gonna take leave on that day n give myself a one whole day pampering to myself! :)

I wanna have high tea at starhill!
I wanna go shopping!
I wanna go spa, waxing and facial!
And I'm gonna do it alone! :)

Cs I don't think anyone will rmb my bday nor will anyone plan anything..
Hmm..so I rather enjoy that day then to rott at home or work @@

Well just a random thought..
It would be nice if he could spend the day with me..eventhough one year ago on that day was the sweetest day of our lives and a year later we're just friends..I wish he could make me happy that day..but this won't happen anyways..argh.. forget it!

is there hope?

Is there still hope between us?
The fact that u are willing to talk back n be friends back is one case..another would be u went out with me alone last Saturday..it brought back memories didn't it? Well it did for me n I hope it did for u as well...

Hmm.. I've learn my lesson so I'm gonna take things super slow on you now..I definitely won't push it...getting u back is my biggest mission now!! :) this plan  must succeed!!

I just hope n pray hard that we can be tgt again..I promise I will appreciate n love u with my whole heart <3

What happened to bffs?

No where and no one else to share my thoughts with..so here I am blogging..the only place I let my mind run freely..

Oh gawd.. What's happening? is it just me or seriously she changed...
Can't she noticed I'm upset? I wonder y did she change so much...suddenly so unreasonable..spoil brat attitude..what happen to the old her? It really upsets me to see What's becoming of her..

To me she's always the one I tell everything to. But somehow it seems she doesn't tell anything to me now..well at least I know I'm not the first to know anymore :( call me selfish but I really don't like sharing my best friend with other people! Childish much? I don't care!!!

Yesterday was a silly mistake..fine! I just pretend nth happened though what happen really pissed me off..I'm just gonna close my eyes n let bygones be bygones..and yet today! Goodness!  Another colleague.. acting like a total bitch giving me her smelly face to see! I'm like trying to talk to her nicely n she won't even look at me n talk! So fucked up! N then my bestie is quitting then fine up to both of them..but seriously? She don't even care about my feelings anymore!
She just suddenly quit out if nowhere! And now she's has a new car..so she's planning to go places n shop with that colleague without me? I have to actually butt in and eavesdrop to know.  . I know u two are quitting but please don't ignore me would you?

So disappointed! Haih.. usually she asks me first..tells me first...
Heck she even talk to the colleague about a new steamboat place infront of me n not inviting me along.. :( my best friend is not my best friend anymore!! T.T n when I said yer.. didn't invite me :( n she yells n say go work la u!!

Please la! I know u usually talk that way but u have to realise that sometimes being rude too often is offensive! U don't even bother abt my feelings..I've like hinted a thousand times to u! U only care abt yourself now ei?  I told u the secret and ask u not to tell out n u told people!!! Wtf is this?! Isn't best frens suppose to keep secrets?! N after an hour past..I just ignored u n walk off just now n u dont even bother to ask What's wrong with me? no calls..zero! so I walked home so damn disappointed! :( n u are happily celebrating your 10months anniversary!  Why did my best friend become so selfish suddenly?

even your boyfriend noticed u become such a pain in the ass lately! What a Great friend u are! :( I feel so neglected..after last year's incident I know I might turn into a sensitive soft weakling ..but seriously.. it's not me being sensitive here...it's just o really feel disappointed in u...I don't even feel safe telling u things now..

Sorry to say..eventhough u said after u  quit we will still hangout like best friends...I seriously doubt so..like seriously..I'll most likely end up hanging out with another of my classmate cutie bestie .. you've changed :( that's all I can say..well go have fun with your new best fren.. enjoy your steamboat..enjoy your life..enjoy your anniversary today..wish u all the best...

I lost total confidence in everything..whether in the coming days we'll still be as close as ever..I seriously don't know and won't put high hopes..haih.. just all the best then....I'm not gonna keep finding u to talk dy.. but well..we are still friends...I'm just gonna go on with my life pretending nth happened..n pretending we weren't so close after all..this is how it will be if we are like what we are now..

Just 4more freaking days..till you wave goodbye to work n me and hello to the college life with new frens.. New car to enjoy...just forget abt me ..Since I'm not really that important to anyone afterall..

Goodbye bloggie..and sweet dreams.. 

Finally eighteen and its not what i expected!

Wow..after so long I Finally decided to blog again..Finally it's been a year now..and I'm eighteen already *sigh* so fast!well so many things happened in just one year..So many peeps Change.. So many bad stuffs happened which changed Me into something I didn't expect to be. Low self esteem and confidence.. D:

Looking back..my 17year old life wasn't a memory thus was hell for I nearly slit my wrist for a dushbag! @@
Besides that..I met another jerk who usually treats me as his toy and I wonder Why I foolishly fall for his crap again thinking he will change maybe? Unfortunately no! =_= played me again!

And studies n family relations weren't as smooth as it seems..my studies suck out loud thanks to the lousy break up I had just before the big exams! What the heck! @@ don't forget my dad was in a bad mood cause of  business failure and some curses thanks to another idiot, he was getting pissed like everyday..causing my life hell..*sigh*

thank God everything is getting better now :) and after 9 months of break up Finally it's our anniversary! Just remembered..happy 9 months of break up! @@
Geez! It took us 9months to Finally put everything down and move on! Well, At least we are friends now @@

Wookayyy... gtg! Ciao miao! ;)