=O its not tht simplee~

Live without pretending, Love without depending, Listen without defending, Speak

without offending.

D: i'm a total oppositee...

reading through quotes

=)

here are some i really liked...

n cuz its partly true..

=D

i believeee

:\ i seeee

nicolass!!

where u wentt!!

grrr!

how nice if someone can understand this :\

I'm so messed up thanks to u!

that explains it

D:

ouh slap me please!

argh~ rough day today

after everything..

there are more disasters!

argh having cramps which is blardy pain!

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my new white clothes change into some funny color

T.T

wth~

lost my appetite to eat...

n now...

arghh...

nth to sayy...

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i say things for a reason..i do thing cause i have my reasons..

though it might be a silly way to settle things..but to me its how i settle things..as long as everything goes according to plan..how anyone misunderstands me..i dont need to explain myself..

only my best friends knw what kind of person i am..only they knw the reason i did it n say it..n if my other frens understands me..they will knw why i said it..cause they knw what kinda person i am..they wont misunderstd me :) i say everythn cause i have my reasons behind it..its for the best..

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one day there was a boy who was walking home from school..

on the way back, he found a sparrow with a broken wing by the drain. The bird was chirping its heart out hoping someone would help it..the kind hearted boy quickly ran over to help the poor bird..he took the bird home n specially bought a cage for it..after taking care of the sparrow for a long period of time..eventually they bonded just like a master n its pet bird :) the boy really loved the bird so much..but he realised..the sparrow wasn't happy at all..it's not because of its wings tht hasn't recovered..it was something tht the little boy couldnt understand..

so one day he asked his grandfather, "granpa..y isnt my bird happy at all? i feed it everyday n gave all of my attention to it..i dont understand.. :(" then his granpa told him.."my dear, you cant treat it as your pet forever as u should know, u took it home just so it could recover from its broken wing..and now its wings are back to normal im pretty sure your pet bird would like to fly freely again and not be stuck in a cage" the boy then said " but i really love the sparrow..if i let it go it wont come back :'( "

then his granpa said.. " if you love something im sure you want to see him happy ..so if you really love the sparrow that much set it free :) if it belongs to you..the bird will always find its way back to you.."

:) the boy then understood n immediately open its cage..the sparrow happily flew out of the cage..though the boy was upset..bt he remembered what his granpa said.." if you love something, set it free". he knew tht its the only way to make the bird happy.. and so..the happy sparrow visited the boy everyday :)

:) so..if u love something set it free..theres no happiness in forceful situations..

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haih..another lesson i ought to learn..i guess i just have to look forward..there's no more turning back..just face the music thn move on! haihh..regrets tht have to let go..

teach me a little each day..

help me to walk in your way.. :)

thanks for helping me to be happy agn! :) thanks for hearing me talk my hearts out..you're a good friend x)

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painted my nails tdy..
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T.T
what am i doing?!
i really dunno..
i dunno wad im doing..
i dunno wad im saying..
im just too upset i dunno wad to do..
i dunno who cn answer my questions..
i dunno hw to make things better fr myself..
i only knw hw to create more problems fr myself..

not only i feel miserable..i feel awfully blur..clueless..n upset..
i only knw hw to cry after evrything is done..i dunno wad to do..

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Oreally?!
am i tht naive?!
is fooling me tht fun fr u?!
after hearing the truth just nw..
i felt sooo disgusted!!
i always keep telling ppl..you're nt like that..bt the fact is YOU ARE!! you're a jackass playboy and a liar!!
i seriously have bad eyes! i cant even tell who's lying to me!! i feel so damn stupid!

i dont ever wanna speak to you or even look at u!! makes me wanna puke a thousand times! gives me goosebums! just stay away from me!!

is opening ur big mouth n just telling me you're already tgt tht hard?!?! finally after 2 n a half years i can really just screw u n throw away those feelings IMMEDIATELY AFTER I KNEW! no nid to think twice! its finally gone!! thank god!! really wasting my time n effort n tears for nth!!

it must b so superbly fun to play a persons feelings isnt it?? why wanna hide it frm me?? really a pile of shit in ur brain that u dont even hv the guts to tell me!! i prefer to knw earlier thn later!! always giving me hope tht we might work next time..bullshit!! is it that hard for u to reject straightforwardly n not drag it all the way until nw?!?! what a joke!!
nvm! there wont be another next time or in future..cause even if u want to..i wont look at u anymore! the chance is gone thn its gone! n nt i small gas dont wanna talk or b frens with u..its what everythn u did..playing me..lying..n so on which includes hurting me!! nobody in my entire life played me before heck u managed to bury pain n suffering n give me emotional rollercoasters for that long!!!! really salute u! feel so proud for u!! wan me to give u an award?! nobody dare to treat me like tht b4!! so dont expect i will talk to u or even look at u now! cause im putting an end to this!! it is so over between us!! dont put ur sorry face anywhr near me!! i will spit on it!! i feel so cheap arnd u! just shoo!

yes i just posted it 29/11
you're nt late :)

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Oreally?!
am i tht naive?!
is fooling me tht fun fr u?!
after hearing the truth just nw..
i felt sooo disgusted!!
i always keep telling ppl..you're nt like that..bt the fact is YOU ARE!! you're a jackass playboy and a liar!!
i seriously have bad eyes! i cant even tell who's lying to me!! i feel so damn stupid!

i dont ever wanna speak to you or even look at u!! makes me wanna puke a thousand times! gives me goosebums! just stay away from me!!

is opening ur big mouth n just telling me you're already tgt tht hard?!?! finally after 2 n a half years i can really just screw u n throw away those feelings IMMEDIATELY AFTER I KNEW! no nid to think twice! its finally gone!! thank god!! really wasting my time n effort n tears for nth!!

it must b so superbly fun to play a persons feelings isnt it?? why wanna hide it frm me?? really a pile of shit in ur brain that u dont even hv the guts to tell me!! i prefer to knw earlier thn later!! always giving me hope tht we might work next time..bullshit!! is it that hard for u to reject straightforwardly n not drag it all the way until nw?!?! what a joke!!
nvm! there wont be another next time or in future..cause even if u want to..i wont look at u anymore! the chance is gone thn its gone! n nt i small gas dont wanna talk or b frens with u..its what everythn u did..playing me..lying..n so on which includes hurting me!! nobody in my entire life played me before heck u managed to bury pain n suffering n give me emotional rollercoasters for that long!!!! really salute u! feel so proud for u!! wan me to give u an award?! nobody dare to treat me like tht b4!! so dont expect i will talk to u or even look at u now! cause im putting an end to this!! it is so over between us!! dont put ur sorry face anywhr near me!! i will spit on it!! i feel so cheap arnd u! just shoo!

yes i just posted it 29/11
you're nt late :)

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Oreally?!
am i tht naive?!
is fooling me tht fun fr u?!
after hearing the truth just nw..
i felt sooo disgusted!!
i always keep telling ppl..you're nt like that..bt the fact is YOU ARE!! you're a jackass playboy and a liar!!
i seriously have bad eyes! i cant even tell who's lying to me!! i feel so damn stupid!

i dont ever wanna speak to you or even look at u!! makes me wanna puke a thousand times! gives me goosebums! just stay away from me!!

is opening ur big mouth n just telling me you're already tgt tht hard?!?! finally after 2 n a half years i can really just screw u n throw away those feelings IMMEDIATELY AFTER I KNEW! no nid to think twice! its finally gone!! thank god!! really wasting my time n effort n tears for nth!!

it must b so superbly fun to play a persons feelings isnt it?? why wanna hide it frm me?? really a pile of shit in ur brain that u dont even hv the guts to tell me!! i prefer to knw earlier thn later!! always giving me hope tht we might work next time..bullshit!! is it that hard for u to reject straightforwardly n not drag it all the way until nw?!?! what a joke!!
nvm! there wont be another next time or in future..cause even if u want to..i wont look at u anymore! the chance is gone thn its gone! n nt i small gas dont wanna talk or b frens with u..its what everythn u did..playing me..lying..n so on which includes hurting me!! nobody in my entire life played me before heck u managed to bury pain n suffering n give me emotional rollercoasters for that long!!!! really salute u! feel so proud for u!! wan me to give u an award?! nobody dare to treat me like tht b4!! so dont expect i will talk to u or even look at u now! cause im putting an end to this!! it is so over between us!! dont put ur sorry face anywhr near me!! i will spit on it!!

yes i just posted it 29/11
you're nt late :)

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lol i planned my x'mas shopping list!! teehee! so excited!!

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ouh waw! :3
i did nth today other than
eat.sleep.watch tv.
yuh jin call it as being "fai cai"
xD

yeap tomorrw n thursday will be another lazy day haha

n next week to sunway!!! :3
martin paying for my trip? seriously i was just joking? D: hmm..we'll see xD

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ytd went to midvalley..had chatime..snowflake..super spicy ramen..n so many more foods xD n bought new clothes agn D:

n sherrinder took my photo while i was laughing lol cause she said i always smile with my mouth closed? haha..sweat!!

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really?!
am i tht naive?!
is fooling me tht fun fr u?!
after hearing the truth just nw..
i felt sooo disgusted!!
i always keep telling ppl..you're nt like that..bt the fact is YOU ARE!! you're a jackass playboy and a liar!!
i seriously have bad eyes! i cant even tell who's lying to me!! i feel so damn stupid!

i dont ever wanna speak to you or even look at u!! makes me wanna puke a thousand times! gives me goosebums! just stay away from me!!

is opening ur big mouth n just telling me you're already tgt tht hard?!?! finally after 2 n a half years i can really just screw u n throw away those feelings IMMEDIATELY AFTER I KNEW! no nid to think twice! its finally gone!! thank god!! really wasting my time n effort n tears for nth!!

it must b so superbly fun to play a persons feelings isnt it?? why wanna hide it frm me?? really a pile of shit in ur brain that u dont even hv the guts to tell me!! i prefer to knw earlier thn later!! always giving me hope tht we might work next time..bullshit!! is it that hard for u to reject straightforwardly n not drag it all the way until nw?!?! what a joke!!
nvm! there wont be another next time or in future..cause even if u want to..i wont look at u anymore! the chance is gone thn its gone! n nt i small gas dont wanna talk or b frens with u..its what everythn u did..playing me..lying..n so on which includes hurting me!! nobody in my entire life played me before heck u managed to bury pain n suffering n give me emotional rollercoasters for that long!!!! really salute u! feel so proud for u!! wan me to give u an award?! nobody dare to treat me like tht b4!! so dont expect i will talk to u or even look at u now! cause im putting an end to this!! it is so over between us!! dont put ur sorry face anywhr near me!! i will spit on it!!

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ciao miao!
nite nite!!

=)

hope her ghost face wont haunt me haha!!

eeeewwww!

D:

dead face! yucks!

mv tomorrow! yeyey!

LOL new pic from mei ying!

xD

mei n shu yee have one aso! haha

wahaha!

LOL

out to mv again tomorrow!

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I'm going there like so many times since last week aiyoyoo~

keep out out

my money aso out out!
T.T

oh weee!!

christmas is coming!

LOL

my shopping list aso cut down

=)

only planning to buy for super close frens haha

others...

BELI SENDIRII

XD

ookaayy..i really have no idea where shi wei sent the photo's to...but!

these are the ones in my hp haha...most camwhored xD

we had an awesome day..wee!

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you have to ask yourself..

do you really love her/him?

if its true love..

you wouldnt be argueing n shouting day n night in the phone..

shouldn't you be laughing away and being sweet all the time..

fighting once and a while still acceptable

but everyday?? o.o

i dont get it why some ppl have to make their life so miserable

and oppressed when they can choose a better life..

a better half...@@!!

and if tht person says..

i cant let go..its hard...

THAT'S BULLSHIT!

if you cant let go..what about those previous girls you have feelings on before?

at the end u still let go didnt u?

its actually up to the person to decide..

A. u become miserable n continue fighting n hoping one day u will get a chance to be tgt

or

B. just forget her...get over n done with it..because sooner or later u have to do it..

if she/he likes you..from the start itself she will accept..

since you've dragg on this long..

shudn't it be time to like let go?

is she/he really tht worth it?

somehow..

i feel all this feelings whether u can let go or not..

is definately controlled by the evil person sitting downstairs watching us do foolish stuffs everyday...

whether you believe or not...

i'm sure he is controlling over u! making u thought n feel tht omg! i really like her...

i cant let go!! actually u can,,,u just have to look to the one up there..

and ask for his help..

I'm not saying this cause i'm jealous or single or something...

i just dont want you to be so miserable..

be happy doggy! :D

The pig..bitch and a blackie xD

ahh just back frm the wedding..
super tired serving..so many ppl!
the bride was damn pretty! dorcas was pretty too! :)

awesomeness lol..

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I'm sexayyy n i knowww itt

xD

LAWL!

I WARN THE PICHAASS!!

I WAN ITT !!

I WAN ITT!!

RAWRRR~

=D

SHI WEIIII

XD

went to MIFW

=)

last minute thing..not planning to go as my sister got tickets for her n her friend at first

thn last minute she cant go n she ask me to come along in the morning

=)

thn it was just random i just went along

its awesome lah xD

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ahh shitt..watching tht wah lai toi drama abt the police shw..tht episode scared the crap outta me xD i was watching it midnight..so creepy!!!!!!!

the man have 2 personalities..n his other half was a girl tht love him so much tht she cut her eye out n possesed him @@ wth i watching it alone dwnstairs lolol scared the crap outta me tht i hv to close my eyes wit my hand n peep...eekkkss!!
CREEPYYYY!!! lol who'd knew a lame hk drama can scared me xD

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:) i believe what he says..i am trusting with all my heart..i will change..he will help me..i knw it will happen..i just nidda wait fr his time :)

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i'm reading it over n over agn.. T.T

i felt touched..but i knw i shudnt..
i want to smile n feel happy..bt i knw if i do..i'm gonna pull myself back into this pain..i finally managed to hardened my feelings on him..act as if he's nt thr even if he's beside me..D: but it epicly failed..especially whn im doing nth..i'll just flash back all the things fr the past 1 n a half yrs..@@

im suffocating like mad..@@ n ytd while breathing i felt pain on my chest..especially whn i breathe in.. D: it lasted fr awhile..am i okay??

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i just finished watching "zui hou zue ding ai shang ni" n yeap..cried.. :/

i didnt expect i gt an sms..but i read it an hour late..D: it made me cry again..i wnder wads with me n crying..@@

bt after the thursday sanctification ytd..i felt less emotional.."HE" said he will chg our lives..i believe HIM..

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T.T

y almost everyone keeps hurting me?!

despite the little problem when i nidda go home..

today was great xD

awesome photo's credits to shi wei xD

awesome time screaming in the k room!

lol

awesome buffet xD

haha

pictures will be uploaded as soon as shi wei sends me the pics

^^

D:

but when going home!

shitt

the monorail was jam packed..

=)

n lucky we met this 2 gentlemans who gave us their seat haha..

but b4 that an indian man again with his dirty hands brushing through my ass

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damn him! thn i faster turn LOL phieeww

n shu said when we sat down he was looking at her 2 big ass coconuts..while scratching his cock

wth!

so horny for wad!!

thn later in ktm kl central!

the stupid train delayed 3 times @@

wait until damn long finally it came

n everyone was fighting n pushing their way in!

standing inside the train like sardin can!

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cant even move..wth~

n i finally know how it feels rubbing ur asses against each other LOL!

thn we finally reach kepong n thts when my bro didnt wanna answer my callls n stuffs..

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finally i came homeeee...

=D

still an awesome day!

but still a little upset whn i saw my bro comment on nicolas wallpost ==

he is still treating me as a retarded bitch! ish!

as if he so smart

T.T

T.T

i just want someone who i can talk to...

i just wish someone will call me..

even if its midnight

T.T

i just feel super upsettt,.

haih!!

i just keep crying

is there anyone to help me wipe my tears off?

T.T

i'm seriously gonna go crazy soon!

i dun wanna be under depression

T.T

but i cant deny the fact i'm starting to hate guys!

i still feel upset..

why is my brother like tht

T.T

WHY IN THE WORLD I HAVE THE WORST BROTHER EVER?!?!
WHY CANT HE BE A NICER BROTHER LIKE HOW EVERY BROTHERS N SISTERS IS?!?!

piss off!!

n he keeps calling me retarded!

as if he's not!!

RAWR!

such an asshole!

another example today!!

the train came super late to kl central not my fault aso!

end up my mum called me n say she will go home first..n when i'm nearby i call her...ok la..fine

and then my brother didnt know my mums hp died so he waited like an hour at the ktm station for my mum to fetch == he keeps calling no one answer until my mum reach home n she answer the house phone! so okay she went to fetch him..as usual he will yell n curse here n thr being so pissed...thn my mum ask him to call me see if i arrived at the kepong station == he didnt wanna call me until my mumm send him home! wth kinda guy is this! thn when he finally gave me a call...the place whr i am at has no signal at all == how the bleady hell am i gonna know gt ppl call me?!?! finally i got the signal..n i called house no one answer until i gt an sms saying my bro miss call me many times..thn i call back he just yelled at me n shut the phone! i havent even ask whr r they whr to meet! he just shout at me n shut the phone!! WHAT THE F! i was left hanging..thn shu yee n shi wei went home edy left me waiting at the station thr..so dark n alone ==!!

i call my bro he off my phone!! wth!! is this how u treat ur sister?!?! if it was me i will answer ur call okay!! u calling me a bitch thn u are not an asshole la?!!!fucker! i standing there blur wondering is anyone gonna fetch me?? i keep calling here n thr no one answer my call!!!

thn i stand thr n suddenly cried ==

really dunno wad happen i just feel so scared tht my mum dun wanna pick me up or somethn

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my brother dun even bother to pick up my call n tell me my mum coming ==

i was just blur there! shit him!

thn i just keep praying hoping my mum wud show up!

ahh lucky she came ==

n i went in the car ask her wad happen..zzz

worst experience ever!

i really dunno why my brother is like that!!

telling ppl i'm a retarded bitch! wad about himself?!!!?!?!?!

really starting to hate guys lah!

all assholes n jerks!

i really envy whenever i see my frens with good brothers..

n can communicate well...

T.T

n go into each other room n talk...

or even they scold each other badwords but its not like scolding its the way they talk

T.T

nt like mine

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no talk..no laugh..no going into his room..nothing!

cant even have a proper conversation with him

T.T

why does such brother exists?!?! sometimes i really feel like crying

i wanna curl my hair permanently :) so stay tuned..

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nites all! tomorrow going sungai wang..times square to hang out xD n later to pavi fr our buffet! weee :3
will update everythn tomorw xD n i gonna wake up 1hr early to dress up leng leng xD so nid my beauty slp..

so whoever going thr see you!! :) hehe..give me a call i go see u xD

anywayss nites!

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sorrayyy bout the messy blog xD i'll come home tomorrw n arrange the pics etc. xD

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went out to mv tdy with shu n sherrinder..cyn din come D:
anyways..great experience interviewing in a big company..lol
n i din expect shers fren tht works thr was tim xD

yeap! finally i met tim in person n i thought he was 20 somethn haha..whooops xD n we wanted to cheat him n say im yik ting instead of melanie haha xD too bad he saw me n immeadiately ask..you're melanie rite? :) we were like aww man!! we wanted to fool u! xD

we all had lunch tgt in spagetthi grill.. hmm n had a good time bullying sher..n laughing away with tim..im surprised i clicked with him..lol

he said i look better real life thn in pictures..n i was like please lahh xD save itt haha..anyways i was talking too much n laughing too much till he cant find a word to describe me xD he was kinda surprise hw a girl you've nvr met b4 n just talk on fb can b super talkative n frenly even if its the first time xD yeyy..lol so the only word he described me is..

OPTIMISTIC :)

hmm..really? outside i can smile n laugh n talk so much..bt does anyone feel my pain T.T

bt i realised whn im talking n laughing away..i dun really feel sad actually xD kinda happy until i do nth n thts whn i feel upset agn..

so i hope someone will talk to me abt happy stuffs so i wont feel pain xD

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