Finally I'm back to blog..
Recently I've learnt.. Appreciate life and be grateful.. Despite what you have now.. Don't forget where you come from and just be humble.. Things come and go so don't take advantage of it..appreciate what you have..
One part of time I met this guy who was perfect.. Not on looks or body but with great personality.. From the beginning it started out as just a rebound.. Someone to fuck around with.. But as time passed he mesmerised me with his charming personality.. Never have I felt so touched for such a long time.. No one has ever treated me the way he did.. The me who gave up on love believed it existed again.. He promised, he dedicate, he was the one. He pampers me and provides me with a life that I don't need to worry about..
Gosh.. This is not an easy post to write
*teary eyes*
But well when you're so overly pampered sometimes you get blinded by all that's around you.. And yes I forgot where I came from and who I was.. The independent me disappeared.. Having the thought that I could depend on this man like finally.. So naive.. And now when it's gone I realised the mistakes I have made which is a very good lesson to learn.. In every walk of life nothing is permanent, as much as you want to find a person you can depend on and just be lazy, you can't! You have to fight in life and the moment you let your guards down that's the time when everything shatters..
The day when he left me.. I was shattered.. Lost.. Disappointed.. And constantly wondered if what he say was true or not.. Back then until now I believe it was real.. Not lies.. we both got so comfortable with each other we just lost our sparks.. Doesn't mean the love wasn't there at first.. And it came to my mind finally to realise that being in a relationship is not easy.. Love is not enough.. It takes effort to keep the Sparks going.. It takes time.. And the mistake was I rushed into things..
And now when I date other men.. There's no one like him.. And how I wish I can turn the time back.. But life has to go on.. I have to stop my self pity.. Pick myself back up and move on..
What I realised now is.. I'm an over sentimental person.. I'm afraid of being lonely.. I'm desperate for love and company of a person.. To the extend I scare off men or just blindly date the red flags.. But that's no excuse.. So I've decided to change.. Love myself and think of me first.. Let love come it's way.. It's mine will be mine.. I'm trying to put my career first and hopefully the next time I blog.. It'll be a good one.. I'll be working for my dream airline.. Things will be great!
And MEL! Stop putting your feelings in so fast or showing it so obviously! Control please! Something I have to really learn..
And in loving memories of our relationship..
You will be missed.. I am grateful for all you have provided me even up to today you didn't stop... You didn't shut me out completely.. You're really a great guy.. I'm so happy you've met someone new who could bring happiness to you.. And I sincerely wish good luck to you.. I really appreciate and cherish the moments we had.. And it's a pity we couldn't workout
Hence I know and still believe someone is out there for me.. I pray and hope one day I'll be the queen to someone's heart 💪🏻💪🏻
Don't give up girls! When times are hard it's usually just a challenge! Good things are about to come.. You just have to be patient.. I'm trying to stay strong and I know u guys can too! Talk to friends or sisters or even your family it helps! <3
P/s: next time when you wanna write an emotional post do not listen to sad songs .. I literally wet my eyes in the mrt haha.. And shit cause I'm going for a dinner date my make up is melted lol..
Signing out!
