Sometimes

Argh.. woke up to a rainy morning...
N my mood is..emo... :\

sometimes...
I just wish I can just separate myself from everyone here..so I won't easily get upset or jealous when I see people having fun without me :(
That's another reason I choose to be a cabin crew...to eliminate myself from the people here...I don't have to see anyone that often..I can live my life with freedom and alone..I can meet different people everyday..n everyday is a different batch of people... my friends won't repeat! Hence it's less the jealousy...

Argh...I really hate it when I think childish like this..but I just can't help it! I'm just so afraid to feel leftout.. to feel alone..like nobody wants to be my friend...sometimes I feel that I don't even have a best friend..I dont like to stay home so much..i like to go out as often as i can..i like to take photos n post them up..doing this makes me feel that I exists..and by going out..its the only time I can smile n laugh..I guess my past really hurt me n made me have this shadow that haunts me every now n then.. I get a lot of people who bumps into me n says I always smile a lot...yeah...but behind those smiles is just a girl who is depressed...

so I wish that I can fly faster...then I don't have to face anyone here.. I can live an independent life and don't feel lonely or upset if anyone doesn't find me..instead..I will disappear from them..

If you just believe :)

Hey peeps!
A long while it is..
A rough road I've been walking on too..
Finally I'm back with my peaceful happy life..and so I decided to blog!

Dreams will come true if you just believe.
True or false?
I used to think those motivators from talks are just speaking based on a book..
But Finally after experiencing it by myself..I'm proud to say..I believe it too!

Why?
Well, I remember back in school..there was this man who gave a talk...he was saying something like " I wanna be that person, and ever since I keep telling myself I will be that in 2years time! And indeed I am what I wanted to be today"
In my head I was like yeah right! But looking back...for these past few months.. what I have been fighting for.. Finally was a success.. x) what a relief! And indeed what he said is true!

Since my course ended during mid July,
I attended interviews after interviews and none of it was a success..I was getting sick n tired of attending cabin crew interviews as it is not as simple as the other ordinary interviews u go through outside...sigh.. these interviews takes the whole day n it's no kidding tiring! But I didn't give up..a few reasons were the key to my motivation.. and I just kept thinking I must and I want to be a cabin crew! I will do it!

Thank God..Finally! I passed my recent interview, I passed my med checkup and now just on my way to fulfil my dream career! :) and in few years time I wanna drive my dream car haha! So we'll see what comes out of it! XD

Well, this is just a post that I hope to inspire my fellow friends..in anything u do..don't give up..just remember if u want something u must get it, be confident! Don't don't ever give up no matter how tired u are :) most importantly...is believe!! believe u can do it, believe u will get it. One day u surely will get it!  Haha.. Yay I'm so excited n yeap... I'll be going to Thailand end of this month so I'll update my bloggie soon!
Ciao miao!