I really don't get it...

reading our old messages..

read your convo with my bitch..

i know i can really see you love me...

but i really dont understand..

i dont get it...

why cant you just discuss the matter with me?

whatever it is..

just talk!

why are you so stubborn like me?!

because of u who dont wanna think about it..

dont even want to give another chance to this relationship

because of you who dont want to discuss....

you prefer to keep the pain n reason in your heart,..

because of your stubborness...

do you know you are not only hurting yourself?

do you know u are killing me inside out?!

its because we both are stubborn!! u ae trying to make me let go of you...

and i wont let go cause what i want i will get it...

so end up we both suffer...

i dont get it..

why cant things go into your head..

why cant you just think properly tht anything can settle instead of listening to that bitch that teach you to let go must let go cruely?!

WTF is that?!

why cant you for once dont take advise from your friends and listen to your heart please?

you are depress..

you start smoking,gambling, driving up to genting for no apparent reason n come back down..

whats the point in doing all this?!

why make yourself suffer and drag me into this when we can be happy?

i dun understand...

its been 3 months..

i cant let go at all...

i still cry every night n its getting worst

i pray everyday..

waiting for god to answer my prayer...

do you know because of your selfish act..

you are making my life a living hell?!

if i can turn the time back...

i wouldnt give u a chance..

i regret..cs now u brought me suffering n pain...

i regret...for everything i do...

i just hope one day you can finally come to your senses..

and come back to me...

i dont care what u are doing now...

its not working!

whatever you're doing is not making me forget n let go of u...

FYI its making me wait for u even more...

if u want to play this game like how we use to when we r together..

i'll play with u until u go tired and come home...

u wanna drag this matter i will drag it...

as long as i dont get the real reason i wont let go...

i dont care what cruel shit your friend teach you to do to me..

i'm gonna be a buffalo when u are the coconut..

i will wait!

i dun give a damn!

i dun care if the whole world ask me to let go...

i want you to know..

I WONT!

i wont let u go so easily!

u think u can just walk into my life n get out easily?!

NO!

it dont work that way in my world!

how suffering it is i will wait!

i dun care if school's gonna end soon!

i will find u!

i will pester u!

n i wont let u go!

and i trust god will answer my prayer...

i know he can see my sincerity..

i know he's watching n he will grant his grace n mercy on me...

T.T

i know i trust i believe

things will change...

it will....

i know....

anyways...

happy birthday sohai! T.T

ILY!