Dilemma

Lying on my bed now...
Just started crying..
I did a lot of things I regretted..
I realised how childish I am..
And seriously.. after cutting off from everyone for awhile and just living my own life really thought me a lot..
Not just made me grow up..but working with adults everyday really changed my perception towards people and things...

Looking back, I really should just let go of grudges.. I mean..I don't even know what am I mad about? I don't even know what I'm doing...maybe this was a stage  I was going through to learn? I really don't know... just felt super lonely especially when I don't have a person to talk too...

Well it seems we are happily going through our own life..initially this was what I wanted but I guess it's not really what I thought  it would  be..oh gosh...what a dilemma.. what's wrong with me..haih.. so I guess it's time for me to make things right again.. I'm so sorry...and I miss you bitch....

As for the jackass.. I really don't know why I'm pissed.. back when he was shouting I should have just shut the phone...(ee ling's  idea ) it's a good one too...then none of this anger thing in me will pop out..I don't understand why you have so much ego? Now we can't even be friends.. not like you even care..haih.. but I guess it all draws down to the little  something we had between us.. it might still be around..we wouldn't know..taurus females and Virgo men are supposed to be 100% compatible.. somehow we're inseparable..so who knows what will happen in future.. it's like I keep on trying to cut off from you but u keep showing up...damn annoying! Haih.. but... what am I doing again? Am I hoping for something?

My gosh! Melanie Melanie when will all this end?! It's already 1 and a half years we ended! Get over it pls.. haih...