What happened to bffs?

No where and no one else to share my thoughts with..so here I am blogging..the only place I let my mind run freely..

Oh gawd.. What's happening? is it just me or seriously she changed...
Can't she noticed I'm upset? I wonder y did she change so much...suddenly so unreasonable..spoil brat attitude..what happen to the old her? It really upsets me to see What's becoming of her..

To me she's always the one I tell everything to. But somehow it seems she doesn't tell anything to me now..well at least I know I'm not the first to know anymore :( call me selfish but I really don't like sharing my best friend with other people! Childish much? I don't care!!!

Yesterday was a silly mistake..fine! I just pretend nth happened though what happen really pissed me off..I'm just gonna close my eyes n let bygones be bygones..and yet today! Goodness!  Another colleague.. acting like a total bitch giving me her smelly face to see! I'm like trying to talk to her nicely n she won't even look at me n talk! So fucked up! N then my bestie is quitting then fine up to both of them..but seriously? She don't even care about my feelings anymore!
She just suddenly quit out if nowhere! And now she's has a new car..so she's planning to go places n shop with that colleague without me? I have to actually butt in and eavesdrop to know.  . I know u two are quitting but please don't ignore me would you?

So disappointed! Haih.. usually she asks me first..tells me first...
Heck she even talk to the colleague about a new steamboat place infront of me n not inviting me along.. :( my best friend is not my best friend anymore!! T.T n when I said yer.. didn't invite me :( n she yells n say go work la u!!

Please la! I know u usually talk that way but u have to realise that sometimes being rude too often is offensive! U don't even bother abt my feelings..I've like hinted a thousand times to u! U only care abt yourself now ei?  I told u the secret and ask u not to tell out n u told people!!! Wtf is this?! Isn't best frens suppose to keep secrets?! N after an hour past..I just ignored u n walk off just now n u dont even bother to ask What's wrong with me? no calls..zero! so I walked home so damn disappointed! :( n u are happily celebrating your 10months anniversary!  Why did my best friend become so selfish suddenly?

even your boyfriend noticed u become such a pain in the ass lately! What a Great friend u are! :( I feel so neglected..after last year's incident I know I might turn into a sensitive soft weakling ..but seriously.. it's not me being sensitive here...it's just o really feel disappointed in u...I don't even feel safe telling u things now..

Sorry to say..eventhough u said after u  quit we will still hangout like best friends...I seriously doubt so..like seriously..I'll most likely end up hanging out with another of my classmate cutie bestie .. you've changed :( that's all I can say..well go have fun with your new best fren.. enjoy your steamboat..enjoy your life..enjoy your anniversary today..wish u all the best...

I lost total confidence in everything..whether in the coming days we'll still be as close as ever..I seriously don't know and won't put high hopes..haih.. just all the best then....I'm not gonna keep finding u to talk dy.. but well..we are still friends...I'm just gonna go on with my life pretending nth happened..n pretending we weren't so close after all..this is how it will be if we are like what we are now..

Just 4more freaking days..till you wave goodbye to work n me and hello to the college life with new frens.. New car to enjoy...just forget abt me ..Since I'm not really that important to anyone afterall..

Goodbye bloggie..and sweet dreams..