The least important one

So after some time..I'm back to blog..yeap! Cause I know this is the only place I can let my feelings out...

Listening to Jay chou - 说了再见
While having a mask on my face..
Relaxing? But somehow I just feel like crying my eyes out...

I really pray hard that God could answer my prayers...
I really miss u until now..
Finally I managed to gather up all my courage to text u what I felt...
I really hope u can come back...
Acting so bubbly when I'm with u is fake..can't u feel it? I don't just want to see u only when u need it..I wish u can find me just because u want to see me so badly...
Do you know how hard I still cry for you? Yeah.. It's easy how many of u can just ask me to move on...
I really tried..a thousand,billion, zillion of times..I really tried..
But you keep finding me after a few months of you disappearing..why must u keep finding me back? T.T

And for my very best best friend..
No longer as best as before ei?
Ya.. I noticed..But I guess nothing else seems to matter anyways..it doesn't seem to bother u either..
So I guess we'll just go our separate ways...

Do you know why I suddenly change from studying at a far away place to being an air stewardess? Cause I realise that place isn't far enough for me to run away from everyone.. and I know that by being in Malaysia..you guys still can find me..I still feel so upset to hear anything about you,where you guys go without me and stuff...I'm sorry to say..I am jealous..I get jealous very easily..and you guys make me jealous all the time.. I feel so depressed and upset..it makes me feel like I'm not important to you guys at all..you know how terrible that feels?
I guess not...I really want to tell you how much I hate you..I hate you for neglecting me T.T I really just want to leave..I really do...I don't even want to see u..I don't even find you these days It's because i don't want to see you..*sigh*

so I hope that this Saturday, I will pass the interview.. that will definitely be the route to a new life.. happiness.. I can't wait for that..I can get away from you guys...If I passed..I won't even tell..I won't want any of u to send me off...I really don't want to see any of u..like seriously.. I don't..

*I hope this post won't affect other of my friends, this only applies to some of them*

I'm so sorry for the rude post..I just feel so down...just keep crying n crying..which doesn't help..I know..But can't help it..thanks much bloggie for listening to my whining..It's stupid I know...see u soon ;)