Dying feelings

My phone chime rings, excited I press the unlock button to see who it is but it wasn't you...

Lately things have been so different.. I hope its because of his exams..
We haven't been talking much which worries me to the core..
How am I going to continue to silently love him when he doesn't even give me attention anymore..
How am I going to know what he does or if he misses me or if he started seeing someone else?
I guess his feelings are faded and mine are just numb like i just got an anesthetic shot..

I'm gonna miss him sending me random suit pictures whenever he dresses up..asking me to pick a tie for him as though my opinion matters.. Thinking about it saddens me how all of this is finally going to end..He's finally not interested anymore..bummer.. who's going to motivate me in german lessons when my biggest motivation has always been you..sigh..

Well the good thing is as time passes I'll be able to let go too..might take ages but it'll come.. I got a job working in a hotel so I can get things off my mind at the moment...

But all these thoughts are just me overly thinking as usual!
I really hope its just because of his exams that he is not really chatting much with me..
Keeping my fingers crossed!!