It feels like everything I do is messed up..
So messed up until I chased away the one thing that made me smile like no other can.. the one that gives me warmth when I wake up next to him.. the one person that gives me fireworks in my stomach when our lips touch..
Being miles and miles apart this insecurity and fear strikes me so hard again.. the emotions comes flooding in and then BOOM! I fucked up again...
Can someone pull me out from this pool I'm drowning in? I just wanna feel free again.. I just wanna be with someone with no fear whatsoever.. can someone actually see that I'm trying my very best to get out of it? Please reach out and grab me out from this pool I'm drowning in.. please god, send me someone patient enough to deal with me.. cause I'm starting to feel all so small again..
But well I guess u can't take back what you said and there's nothing much I can do about it anymore.. Just go with the flow and hope for the best! I believe if I'm really worth it somebody someday will come back and continue an adventure with me.. As much as I hope for a miracle to happen.. somethings are just meant to be and meant to happen for a reason... Learn from the mistakes Melanie and grow up! Everyday is a learning process and like my tattoo tells me everyday.. "Never give up" . Some people are meant to be in your life for a reason, to teach you a lesson, some is a blessing for sure.. A blessing in disguise maybe? Trying to stay positive and looking forward for whatever ahead of me!
Stay strong Melanie!
Signing off :)
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